"Are you saying I'm mentally unstable?"

It seems like everytime someone tries to get close to me I push them away, by testing their bounds. I try to see how far I can push them until they finally crack, & break. I say and do the craziest things just to get a reaction. I believe this is why I will never be in a healthy relationship again. Atleast until I stop this, I just have a hard time setting my gaurds down. After I got my heart broken for the first time I never wanted to go through it again, so I'm not allowing myself to get in too deep. It seems I can only show my true feelings to my friends and family. Anyone I see as potentially more than a friend I put my walls up, I don't give a chance, I break hearts. But when I go to bed it's a horrible feeling being completly alone.

Fear

A fear to me is more of an interest
Something you don't want to happen
Something you don’t want to see
But it’s something that needs to happen
It’s something you need to see
It’s something you need to face
Overcoming fear is the hardest thing
Fear to me is a funnel cloud
And a tornado descending from it
An airplane falling from the sky
And crashing to the ground
Fear is something that intrigues me
Something I want to happen
It’s something I need to see
It’s something I want to scare me
It’s a challenge
It’s called fear

My Definition Of A Poem

To me a poem is a way for me to show what I'm feeling, to let everything out. Whether it is the feeling of love or hate, or anywhere inbetween. A poem expresses my feeling, & what I'm going through. It's more of a release, to get something off my chest. It's a stress reliever. Whenever I write a song or a poem, its usually about a breakup, it always makes me feel better about my current situation. It's kind of a way for me to let go, it's closure. I write my best work whenever I'm either at my highest high, or my lowest low. The more emotions running through my body the more I have to say, & the better I can write.