Conflicts

I have many conflicts, but the ones that stand out most are the never ending problems my ex and I still have, & the constant dwelling over the fact that I am STILL single. I'm honestly over the fact that my ex & I are always having problems "trying to be friends", I realize that I'm not the one creating the problems, or being immature. I've just accepted that it's always going to be like this.

I'm starting to get over the fact that I'm single because I'm kinda-sorta starting to see someone. =]

fag.

If I could choose the perfect guy he'd have a big nose (its just my thing), dark hair, a tan, peircings, tattoo's, & an athletic build. He'd be interested in music, hair, video games, partying, and most of all ME. He'd also be a neat freak just like me, so I don't have to deal with the dirt. He'd play guitar in a scremo band. Even though he'd be so unbelievably hardcore he'd also have to have a heart and a soft side. He'd be someone I could be myself around, someone I'd be comfortable with. Almost like a best friend.

However, I realized this is never going to happen. :[

Zaquesha.

Someday when I'm a rich & famous hairstylist a movie will be made about my outstanding achievements & incredibly good looks. The only person who's a close second to me would be Zac Effron. Nicole Richie would play my best friend Tacia, Paris Hilton would play Jade Lowery, Britney Murphy would play Courtney Miller, & Courtney Love would play my mom.

It would be off the heezie yo.

.Matchew

I don't regret anything, I'm a firm believer in the saying "everything happens for a reason". I've made good and bad choices, but at the end of the day those choices taught me lessons, and made me the person I am today.

However, if I could go back and change anything I'd go back to my first and only real relationship. In end I wouldn't have let myself go down the drain, or let that person treat me so terribly. I would have been the confident strong one.